You won't be honest about your own time alive. You can read how to manipulate brains to mind social consensus, but you won't keep your own brain from denying all you were since conception.
Your choices are self evident by who you have became serving humanity's planned outcomes of 24/7. Your mind isn't on a higher plane than adapting in your own skin since conceived.
You are just another ancestral malcontent with life in actual time lived after birth. Misery loves company.